Paris is officially 10 days away. I'm stressed, nervous and praying everything goes amazingly well. I want to succeed in life. I really hope that my dreams come true.
I have to make sure I stick to my plan. London's my home. I don't want it to be a waste of 12 months otherwise what's the point in me being there. I keep looking at the suitcases I've packed and the list of final things I have to do and keep thinking "Am I really doing this? Am I ready for this?"
As exciting as doing something like this is, I guess there's never anything wrong with getting a few nerves I guess. I just pray this isn't a mistake.
May the Lord keep me staying positive and guide me. I know I'll need it now more than ever.
It's been such an eventful three weeks since my last blog. Some good, some upsetting but it's made me happy and given me a different outlook on life.
The goddaughter I never had the honour of meeting passed away which was a shock but in my heart, I think she's in a good place. I definitely want to change my tattoo so she's never forgotten.
Then I did a couple of modelling shows as recently as 2 days ago. I had an absolute blast!! It's something I'll definitely do again.
I'm also kinda dating someone but not dating someone. He's an amazing man with such a big heart and he's been spoiling me for the past month. He gets me all giggly when I'm around him. He really is making my final weeks in London special. I'll never forget it.
I've been doing loads of planning and shopping and socialising and it made me wonder "Why wasn't I like this before?" I like this new me but I definitely need God in my life more. I feel like there's a part of me missing. Hopefully I'll find him again soln.